Counting days

 #theministory gonna start soon. 

During the online reunion of RU20, "Sedetik Sejenak Bersama RU20' we played Dam Ular containing sharing sessions. It was very cheerful and exciting reunion ever. It was the first reunion that I joined (I always unable to join them few times before). 

How I missed them so much, listening to each voices reminds me when Huda taught me English and checking my essay in her accents, Arwa and her naughtiness, Aeyn and her jokes, Amni Farihah and her words, Syakirah and her still not-matured-yet voices during telling how pregnancy feels like, Asyhrafun this time looked quiet matured telling how her first pregnancy aborted 😭 and Puteri still same like always, "abang Jamil sihat ke?" hahaha! 

Allahu, I really wanna meet them back!

Seeing they talking each others, I smiled and laughed a lot until my TMJ muscles got aches back, but then my minds whispered how I wish I can be like before, because i changed a lot, like a lot. 

I don't want to meet them, 

I don't want to cry in front of them.

I don't want anyone else know about my black stories. 

So I, just smile. Pretend things are fine. 

One of them said, "Adulting is hard". I guess most of us feeling that, at least me, understand it hard enough. 

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Fada then asked all of us in her delightful slang, "what's your target/wishes before get into 25?"

Some of us lost of words and some are laughing. Some saying that they didn't see anything as it got blurred due to unexpected time MCO will end. Some laughing as it like job seeking interview question or baitul muslim question. Ya it just few months ahead toward that one forth of the century age right. 

As for now, everyone of us plan to finish their study, get own money, get permanent job and so on. But when it comes to my turn...

You know how bad my internet line was. I was talking alone, nobody heard me, so I texted some of them to make sure the condition. So at my turn, my reunion partner handling team read my wish... 

"I want to have my own baby's aqiqah before my 25th birthday"

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Time paused. 

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"bila eh birthday nani?"

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"bulan 11 kan?"

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"weh nani nak kawen keeee!?"

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"serious lah!"

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Just like gender-revealing party, they shot me questions like machine gun. 

Of course everyone wants to hear it from me  directly. It was soooo chaotic moment ever as always kita punya ribut kan =') what can I do, senyum je lah, yang tahu cerita helps giving hints, then I wrote je lah dekat In Chat Messages due to internet instability. 

Feeling like orang bisu gitu haha. 

My typing here also paused due to still unstoppable smiling.

May Allah grant all the wishes and the prayers. 

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"Kita ni dah tunang eh awak?"

Hahaha. 

I woke up from sleep post night shift smiling like wants to katoq kepala orang after read the text. 

I think he is still in denial phase, just like me. 

May Allah ease all the upcoming events ❤